It's my party and I'll eat if I want to

We all know not to be an "emotional eater" when we are depressed or upset. I feel like I got that down pretty good over the past year but this past month has been rough. Not rough because I was feeling down but because I was feeling amazing for the first time in a long time. The best way to celebrate is to eat...right?

The past 3 years have been a rocky road. It all started when my husband lost his job the day before we closed on a house and 3 weeks before our wedding. The love for each other was always there but it was getting crowded out with worries about job loss, money, anxiety, cars breaking down, health problems, working multiple jobs and so on. It wasn't till a month ago that I felt the fog starting to lift and life starting to get better and better each day.

So many blessings from God but I am forgetting something very basic He taught me. Do not go to food for any sort of emotional reason. Let's be clear, this isn't a one time "celebration" dinner that I am referring to...this is weeks of eating whatever my heart desires without much mental thought.

The mental part was just as scary to me as the pounds increasing on the scale. Your food choices are easy to change but your mental changes are the hardest. Had I stopped caring? Did I think I was invincible to weight gain? I had maintained the same weight since last November which was great but I don't have that record any more. I knew that I wouldn't fall off the food wagon if things got tough because my Jesus wouldn't let me but I didn't predict falling off the wagon when things got too caught me off guard.

Now what? Well, I am taking a break this week from work before I start a new job (yay!) but that means I will be home alone a lot which always triggers bad food choices.This week will also include meeting up with friends several times at restaurants to "celebrate" my new job so that equals more challenges. So, to help make some new habits stick, I am letting you people know what I am doing to add accountability!

1. Going to the gym everyday (YMCA probably won't acknowledge my membership, it's been that long)
2. Try at least 3 new healthy cooking recipes
3. Only eating at meal and snack times
4. Blog more
5. Learn to celebrate by rejoicing in what Jesus has done for me

It may be my party and I can eat whatever I want but that doesn't mean that I will.

1 Corinthians 6:12 "Everything is permissible to me, but not everything is beneficial"